The Soul's Pursuit of the Divine

כְּאַיָּ֗ל תַּעֲרֹ֥ג עַל־אֲפִֽיקֵי־מָ֑יִם כֵּ֤ן נַפְשִׁ֨י תַעֲרֹ֖ג אֵלֶ֣יךָ אֱלֹהִֽים׃ צָמְאָ֬ה נַפְשִׁ֨י ׀ לֵאלֹהִים֮ לְאֵ֢ל חָ֥֫י מָתַ֥י אָב֑וֹא וְ֝אֵרָאֶ֗ה פְּנֵ֣י אֱלֹהִֽים׃

Like a hind crying for water, my soul cries for You, O God; my soul thirsts for God, the living God; O when will I come to appear before God!

מׇשְׁכֵ֖נִי אַחֲרֶ֣יךָ נָּר֑וּצָה הֱבִיאַ֨נִי הַמֶּ֜לֶךְ חֲדָרָ֗יו נָגִ֤ילָה וְנִשְׂמְחָה֙ בָּ֔ךְ נַזְכִּ֤ירָה דֹדֶ֙יךָ֙ מִיַּ֔יִן מֵישָׁרִ֖ים אֲהֵבֽוּךָ׃

Let us delight and rejoice in your love, Savoring it more than wine— Like new wine they love you!

וּבִקַּשְׁתֶּ֥ם מִשָּׁ֛ם אֶת־יְהֹוָ֥ה אֱלֹהֶ֖יךָ וּמָצָ֑אתָ כִּ֣י תִדְרְשֶׁ֔נּוּ בְּכׇל־לְבָבְךָ֖ וּבְכׇל־נַפְשֶֽׁךָ׃

But if you search there, you will find the ETERNAL your God, if only you seek with all your heart and soul—

תַּלְמִידֵי חֲכָמִים מַרְבִּים שָׁלוֹם בָּעוֹלָם, שֶׁנֶּאֱמַר: ״וְכׇל בָּנַיִךְ לִמּוּדֵי ה׳ וְרַב שְׁלוֹם בָּנָיִךְ״.

Rabbi Levi bar Ḥiyya said: One who leaves the synagogue and immediately enters the study hall and engages in Torah study, is privileged to receive the Divine Presence, as it is stated: “They go from strength to strength, every one of them appears before God in Zion” (Psalms 84:8); those who go from a place of prayer to a place of Torah study are privileged to receive a divine revelation in Zion. With regard to that same verse, Rabbi Ḥiyya bar Ashi said that Rav said: Torah scholars have rest neither in this world nor in the World-to-Come, as in both worlds they are constantly progressing, as it is stated: “They go from strength to strength, every one of them appears before God in Zion.”

הוּא שֶׁיֹּאהַב אֶת ה' אַהֲבָה גְּדוֹלָה יְתֵרָה עַזָּה מְאֹד עַד שֶׁתְּהֵא נַפְשׁוֹ קְשׁוּרָה בְּאַהֲבַת ה' וְנִמְצָא שׁוֹגֶה בָּהּ תָּמִיד כְּאִלּוּ חוֹלֶה חֳלִי הָאַהֲבָה שֶׁאֵין דַּעְתּוֹ פְּנוּיָה מֵאַהֲבַת אוֹתָהּ אִשָּׁה וְהוּא שׁוֹגֶה בָּהּ תָּמִיד בֵּין בְּשִׁבְתּוֹ בֵּין בְּקוּמוֹ בֵּין בְּשָׁעָה שֶׁהוּא אוֹכֵל וְשׁוֹתֶה. יֶתֶר מִזֶּה תִּהְיֶה אַהֲבַת ה' בְּלֵב אוֹהֲבָיו שׁוֹגִים בָּהּ תָּמִיד כְּמוֹ שֶׁצִּוָּנוּ בְּכָל לְבָבְךָ וּבְכָל נַפְשְׁךָ.

That a person should love God with a very great and exceeding love until his soul is bound up in the love of God. Thus, he will always be obsessed with this love as if he is lovesick. [A lovesick person's] thoughts are never diverted from the love of that woman. He is always obsessed with her; when he sits down, when he gets up, when he eats and drinks.

וּכְשֶׁתִּסְתַּכֵּל בַּדָּבָר תִּרְאֶה כִּי הַשְּׁלֵמוּת הָאֲמִתִּי הוּא רַק הַדְּבֵקוּת בּוֹ יִתְבָּרַךְ, וְהוּא מָה שֶׁהָיָה דָּוִד הַמֶּלֶךְ אוֹמֵר (תהלים עג): וַאֲנִי קִרְבַת אֱלֹהִים לִי טוֹב. וְאוֹמֵר (שם כז):

When you look further into the matter, you will see that true perfection lies only in clinging to G-d. This is what King David said "But as for me, closeness to G-d is my good" (Ps. 73:28) and, "one thing I asked from G-d; that I seek, that I may dwell in G-d's house all the days of my life, to gaze on the pleasantness of G-d..." (Ps. 27:4). For only this is the good, while anything besides this that people consider good is really emptiness and mistaken worthlessness.

פֵּירוּשׁ, שֶׁיִּשְׂרָאֵל הַקְּרוּיִם ״אָדָם״, נִשְׁמָתָם הִיא, לְמָשָׁל, כְּאוֹר הַנֵּר שֶׁמִּתְנַעְנֵעַ תָּמִיד לְמַעְלָה בְּטִבְעוֹ, מִפְּנֵי שֶׁאוֹר הָאֵשׁ חָפֵץ בְּטֶבַע, לִיפָּרֵד מֵהַפְּתִילָה וְלִידָּבֵק בְּשָׁרְשׁוֹ לְמַעְלָה בִּיסוֹד הָאֵשׁ הַכְּלָלִי שֶׁתַּחַת גַּלְגַּל הַיָּרֵחַ, כְּמוֹ שֶׁכָּתוּב בְּעֵץ חַיִּים. וְאַף שֶׁעַל יְדֵי זֶה יִכְבֶּה וְלֹא יָאִיר כְּלוּם לְמַטָּה, וְגַם לְמַעְלָה – בְּשָׁרְשׁוֹ, יִתְבַּטֵּל אוֹרוֹ בִּמְצִיאוּת בְּשָׁרְשׁוֹ, אַף־עַל־פִּי־כֵן, בְּכָךְ הוּא חָפֵץ בְּטִבְעוֹ. כָּךְ נִשְׁמַת הָ״אָדָם״, וְכֵן בְּחִינַת רוּחַ וָנֶפֶשׁ, חֶפְצָהּ וְחֶשְׁקָהּ בְּטִבְעָהּ לִיפָּרֵד וְלָצֵאת מִן הַגּוּף וְלִידָּבֵק בְּשָׁרְשָׁהּ וּמְקוֹרָהּ – בַּה׳ חַיֵּי הַחַיִּים בָּרוּךְ־הוּא; הֲגַם שֶׁתִּהְיֶה אַיִן וָאֶפֶס וְתִתְבַּטֵּל שָׁם בִּמְצִיאוּת לְגַמְרֵי, וְלֹא יִשָּׁאֵר מִמֶּנָּה מְאוּמָה מִמַּהוּתָהּ וְעַצְמוּתָהּ הָרִאשׁוֹן, אַף־עַל־פִּי־כֵן, זֶה רְצוֹנָהּ וְחֶפְצָהּ בְּטִבְעָהּ.

What it means is that the souls of Jews, who are called “man,” are, by way of illustration, like the flame of the candle, whose nature it is always to flicker upward, for the flame of the fire intrinsically seeks to be parted from the wick in order to unite with its source above in the universal element of fire which is in the sublunar sphere, as is explained in Etz Chaim. And although it would thereby be extinguished and emit no light at all below, and even above, in its source, its light would be nullified, nevertheless this is what it seeks in accordance with its nature. In like manner does the neshamah of man, including the quality of ruach and nefesh, naturally desire and yearn to separate itself and depart from the body in order to unite with its origin and source in G–d, the Fountainhead of life, blessed is He, though thereby it would become null and void, completely losing its entity therein, with nothing remaining of its former essence and being. Nevertheless, this is its will and desire by its nature.